Back in January, I chose my one little word for 2014 in lieu of making resolutions. I chose "grow". Today I want to check in on that little word.
I found myself thinking about my word for 2015 a few weeks back. How lame is that? 2014 isn't even over, not even close to over, and yet I'm already dismissing it and moving on to the next one. I still have many more months to grow. I realized that I've sort of lost sight of my word. I'm not sure what it means to me anymore. I'm not even sure how I've applied it thus far. I need to re-ground. I need to not let grow go. I need to invite it into my life for the rest of this year so that it can, hopefully, carry on with me for years to come despite whatever my new word is.
Looking back over the year so far, these are the ways I think I've grown:
-- I've become more patient. Patient with my relationship, patient with my family, patient with my coworkers.
-- I've mellowed out with my siblings. I can be really intense with my advice and how I deliver it. I can be overly "motherly" and not just "sisterly". But, I've learned (and am learning!) to just listen and to know when to offer advice and then do so in a non-bossy way. I also try to just allow mistakes. It's part of life. And I tend to want to fix everything for everyone. I'm getting better about just saying, yeah, that sucks. Or you'll figure it out, just do what you gotta do. It's definitely making for some healthier relationships!
-- I bought a house. With my boyfriend.
-- I've become diligent about tracking all my finances. I use mint.com on the daily.
Ways I think I can grow over the next few months:
-- I need to be more patient with myself. I've been really hard on myself lately and it's not good for my self-esteem, my productivity, my motivation, or my happiness.
-- I need to be better about budgeting. I know where I spend my money. Now I need to reign it in and prioritize.
-- I need to let go of fear. I've been feeling stagnant and unhappy with my career and those feelings are permeating into the rest of my life. Stagnant is the opposite of grow. I need to figure out how to change this, whether it be getting a new job or redefining the one I have now. I need to not be so afraid of failure and go after what I really want.
Well, now that I have a road map to help me grow for the rest of the year, I feel a little better. I have 4 months to continue to grow and I'm going to make the most of them!