nothing is different, everything has changed

I lost my Dad two weeks ago. 

I can't talk about it yet. My heart is broken. And I am confused. 

I returned from San Diego last week. To a world where everything is exactly the same as it was when I left. But nothing is the same. I am not the same. My life is forever changed. My future children's lives are forever changed. I look at people walking by and I want to scream.

Don't you feel it?! How are you okay?!

But I also don't want them to look at me. Because I feel it and I'm not okay and it shows. 

My voice has changed. It sounds cracked. Maybe you can't hear it. But I can. 

 

Taking Stock #4

coffee and crochet wild mae

Time for another round of Taking Stock!

Cooking : tons and tons of zucchini bread (my garden has gone insane)
Drinking : homemade pumpkin spice lattes 
Reading : Lean In by Cheryl Sandberg except I've been listening to it on audio book
Wanting :  to catch up on sleep. Puppies are a lot of work. 
Looking :  forward to this season and immersing myself in Fall projects. 
Playing :  with paper for the first time since college
Crocheting : a large basket and eco-friendly "cotton pads" 
Planning : travels for all the holidays...whose family, what city, etc.
Enjoying : living alone with Jake
Waiting : excitedly for a meeting with a small business and tax consultant next week! #nerdalert
Planning : a super awesome holiday workshop with Share Denver
Loving : having a newly cleaned and organized craft room. It's so inspiring!
Teaching : lots of classes at Share. 3 different ones!
Marveling : over my body's improvement after just one month of crossfit. 
Needing : to finish this big work project by the end of month
Going : on a trip every weekend. So busy.
Moving : the rest of Jessie's stuff up to Bozeman, MT
Thinking : about new products for the Wild Mae shop
Feeling :  a little under the weather. First a head cold and now a chest cold :(
Wearing :  yoga pants everyday. I need to break this habit.
Learning : the laws and practices of real estate in Colorado

As usual, I removed some prompts and added a few. If I'm stumped on a prompt, I don't want to stress about coming up with something! 

See Taking Stock #1 , #2 , and #3.

Pick a prompt or two from the list and leave me your responses in the comments! 

Inspiration from here and originally from here

Our little bundle of joy...

Moxie Mae Boxer Heeler Puppy

Meet Moxie Mae! Short for Moccasin. She is the sweetest, cutest little girl ever and she has completely stolen my heart. She is a boxer/heeler mix and is about 9 weeks old this week. We found her on Craigslist. A woman had adopted her (although we aren't very confident in this) and then realized she couldn't care for a puppy. We drove all the way to Colorado Springs at 10pm on a Tuesday to meet her and, ultimately, adopt her. I'm so glad we did. We were told that she was 8 weeks old, but after her vet appt the next day, it turned out she was barely 7 weeks. I'm sure she would have found another home quickly, but she definitely wasn't in a good one at the time. Luckily she's young enough that there shouldn't be any scarring. Although, she's also a little too young, so we will be working through some mommy issues with her. So sweet though, right? 

Sleepy Moxie Mae
Moxie Mae and Libby
Moxie Mae and El Capitan

She is getting along swimmingly with Libby and El Capitan. She has lots of doggy friends at my work and she has loves everyone. She has no loyalty. ;-) She is already learning to sit pretty well, she knows her name, and comes when called as long as there aren't too many distractions. It's definitely a lot of work, but so rewarding when she learns something new! I just love her. 

Oh Hey Moxie Mae

I mean, look at that face. She slays me. 

Follow me on Instagram for more heart-string-tugging photos of Moxie!

28 Before 29

Wild  Mae 28 Before 29 List

If you've been hanging out in blog land for a while, you may have noticed how many people create birthday lists coinciding with the age they are turning. A list of items/goals they'd like to complete before their next birthday. They aren't all grandiose. I mean, depending on your age there can be a lot on that list! They range from as simple as try something new to as big and complex as starting a business. Some people get creative and decide to do X amount of projects before the next birthday. I believe this was all started by Hula Seventy. Anyway, I made a list of 28 things I'd like to do before my 29th birthday. 

  1. learn to do a pull-up
  2. sew a quilt
  3. hike a fourteener
  4. complete a full triathlon
  5. decorate our bedroom
  6. build a dining room table
  7. go on a just-the-two-of-us vacation with Jake
  8. start an online shop
  9. pay off credit cards
  10. plant a wildflower/native garden
  11. purge beauty and bath products
  12. display more photos
  13. start a new tradition
  14. go on more dates (at least one a month)
  15. compost during warm weather
  16. go on a road trip
  17. make traditional Japanese ramen
  18. do something out of my comfort zone
  19. make homemade jam/jelly
  20. send out birthday cards - on time!
  21. make a mini-book
  22. try a new hairstyle - cut or color
  23. go to a music festival
  24. make wine
  25. go to 120 Crossfit classes
  26. not shown for personal reasons!
  27. volunteer
  28. teach a workshop

So there you have it! My 28 Before 29 List in no particular order. I feel like it's a good mix of challenging and simple, goals and to-dos.

I look forward to my 29th trip around the sun!

xoxo Kerrie